Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Day by Day

It's been 10 weeks and 4 days since my Dad....died.  Even typing those words, I still don't believe it's true.  I'm struggling to deal with the pain.  So, for now, I shake my head to the unbelievable and crazy idea that it might be true.

Scott has come to stay with me twice now to try and talk about everything that has happened.  We found that we can only talk about it for a few minutes until it becomes too unbearable, then we change the subject.  We have found that there's just an unspoken understanding between us.  If we are having fun, we feel ok about it because we're together.  We sent this picture to my mom when we were together to show her we were smiling.    

Scott and I went to visit Shelley at one of Maddie and Max's baseball games.  Max did so good.  I think baseball has kept Shelley very busy this summer- a much welcomed distraction for her.

My greatest escape these days is golf.  It's very refreshing to get out there and whack the hell out of something...  I enjoy it most when I get to go with Jason.  He has been my rock through all of this.

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I've been going through pictures on my iphone.  Saylor's car seat is directly behind the drivers seat.  When I can't see what she's doing in the mirror, I'll hold my phone back as far as I can behind my head and take a picture to see what she's doing.  This is one of the pics I took :)

Our niece, Lauren, just had a birthday.  She had it at this really great place in Conway called "Branch Out".  Kohen enjoyed painting so much at the party.

He was supposed to paint a pre-drawn baseball.  I knew there was NO WAY he would paint that baseball, and it actually look like a baseball.  So, I just let him have at it.  I love his "abstract" painting!

My baby girl is growing up.

So is my baby boy.

Kohen recently had surgery for tubes...

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1 comment:

Miss E said...

so so so sorry for your loss, you're smart it staying close with your loved ones. it stinks, ok sucks when we do not understand God's plan. those babies smiles are soo sweet, i give you major props for plugging on & not hiding under a rock! i hope the pain/sting of it subside soon and you heart is warmed by all your sweet, precious memories